A fighter for freedom and justice from Palestine, Gaza.

Silence Amidst the Horror

I am sitting so close to my mother, expecting anything to happen any time. I hate to listen to the radio but I have to. The Radio announcer keeps repeating the same sentence again and again “People, try to take as much caution as possible!” What a silly call! Who knows where is or is not a safe place in Gaza during war time? All I want right now is to see my family members around me. I keep moving my eyes over and around them. They are totally silent but features of worry and fear are easy to make out on their faces. “It sounds like another war” mum said. I just looked and listened in silence, and continued pressing the keyboard buttons. I feel cold like never before. I feel so much in need of a blanket or a sweater but two things stops me from that; my legs and my lips. I can’t break my silence as well as my stiffened state. Nothing but my fingers are moving.

I laughed at myself as I remembered how I bolted down in a flash from the second floor to the first floor where my family stays. Fear takes over, pushes you further. Subconscious strength drove my legs to gather with the others—the safest place I can be. Suddenly, I stopped writing. I couldn’t see anything around me, all colors are unclear. A series of flashbacks from the last war on Gaza that were buried somewhere in my absent memory have reemerged. The sound of war planes is getting louder. The sirens of ambulances are still ringing. I wish I can move and bring some cotton to close my ears. This is the only time when I envy the deaf. “7 children are injured!” the announcer said. I felt as if somebody had thrown freezing water over my face so strongly that it sounded like a slap, though I remained unmoved and unconscious to it.

 

3 responses

  1. very nice writing shahd, although a horrific feeling. Conveying what people go through effectively in Gaza is best done by just describing what's happening around you, as you proved here. Hundreds and thousands of families up and down Gaza are expected to go through this, sisters, brothers, mothers, fathers staring at each other consumed by fear and resurfacing memories of loss and devastation. Held captive as Israel picks and chooses who they terrify and the world watches on. But People are rising and Israel will be held to account, they will be shamed for their acions and Palestine will be free. Keep writing shahd! Keep writing!

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    March 25, 2011 at 5:36 pm

  2. Olga Brajnović

    please, keep safe!, we need you, don’t give up, you describe this situation like nobody.

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    May 30, 2012 at 8:31 pm

  3. Olga Brajnović

    keep safe your family also, I pray for all you!

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    May 30, 2012 at 8:31 pm

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